It’s natural for me to put myself last. I’ve been this way since I was a child. This IS the real me. Because of my life experiences I can feel what others feel and innately look for the lonely, injustice and exploited. But there is also this other side that tells me it’s been a self worth issue; a thing I hear many adoptees experience…(Adoption Awareness Month)
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Loss On Repeat
I keep a private digital journal and one of my recent entries was about not wanting to see others out of fear I’d have nothing to offer but tears…
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Am I a Burden?
Thoughts of being a burden on your partner, a burden on society or loved ones, often streams through disabled minds including mine. Being different often makes one feel unworthy but this is amplified when it’s perpetuated by society...and they’ve been good at telling us how damaged and burdensome we are.
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Play Rodney Redlawsk Memorial Video. (I edited for dad’s June 2021 memorial. One song had to be to Reba McEntire, his favorite.)
My Dad
When I first rolled into my childhood bedroom I was startled when I saw my father. He looked so different, so frail and quiet in his bed, a complete contrast to the boisterous dad with the booming voice that I knew.
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Sitting in front of childhood Michigan home, dad lived here 43 years.
These Days
It’s been a difficult couple months, rather year, like it has for so many. I’ve had many deeply sad times. In the past few months everything that could happen has behind the veil of social media.
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Sad News and Random Thoughts
It is with deep sorrow I share that my father, Rodney Howard Redlawsk, passed away Sunday, January 31, 2021. He was a proud father of four children and grandfather of four grandchildren. We are postponing services for now but will notify you of our celebration plans in the near future (thinking this summer, outside event).
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